I am bored at work so here i am. (I have quite a bit to do today but i am taking my own sweet time and just…yknw, procrastination at its best) 17 more working days to go.
Lol i was just reading some young mom’s Dayre yesterday at work and gosh her baby son is sooooo adorable?? I’m only turning 21 in like a day but all i actually look forward to is have my own kids…..which will probably only happen 6/7 years later….. I know this is quite mad but i’m really so excited to be a mom??? (tho not so to be a wife ha ha) I think growing up watching how my mom keeps the family together and being the pillar of strength for everyone in the family really drives and makes me want to be a wonderful mom too in the future??? I really do not know how she does it but she is such a super mom. Everyone says that of her too. She works a full-time job, wakes up earlier than my sister & i to prepare BOTH breakfast and lunch for herself & me, comes home to prepare dinner for the family to doing household chores on a daily basis before settling down on the couch to watch her drama. Please i am just dead the moment i knock off from work and would barely be alive if i go for my evening runs. I think youth is just boring for me like i am more or less done; enjoyed enough, experienced enough, play enough and am very ready for the next phase of life – settling down and building my own family. I really cannot wait for that time to come???? My mom tells me all the time i better not mention this to my boyf because i’ll scare him away with the pressures of marrying me. Even conversations with my older friends are always about kids and parenting oh gosh i feel so much like an old hag at times.
Anyways mom was so cute to say, “you seriously don’t want a party for your 21st? i feel damn sad for you since you only turn 21st once….shall we do something to celebrate during cell on Saturday?” I really feel bad because she gotta then start preparing from morning when Saturdays is the time she really gets her rest and not like i am gonna be of any help in the kitchen too. Haha seriously……i do not really care much about birthdays and it just feels like another ordinary day of my life. And 21…..is really just a number……. either way, my mom always makes me feel so blessed and loved. Always thankful for this blessing.
Okay back to life…. got to finally spend some quality time with people whom i haven’t seen for a very very long time……..
1) I got to see my grandparents before they return to Msia after my cousin’s wedding because we aren’t even sure if we’re heading back the coming CNY so it was good. Always nice to see the elders but very very very reluctant to say goodbye. Till then, i’ll see you very soon yeye popo.
2) Got to finally meet Ling after our previous trip in April lol how long is that? 7 months??? I swear our schedule really clashes like crazy the only time i get to see her is when we travel together or during our Christmas reunion. I really appreciate how low-maintenance our friendship is and thank you for always bringing so much joy being with you.
3) Got to finally (too) meet the friend which SQ stole from me!! Was actually contemplating if i wanted to go for my run yesterday because my inner thighs sore so much from the intense stretching i did (hais so inflexible i know) and i got a text from Koh if she could join me running. Bursting with so much excitement while i was walking to my house bus-stop to see her because i think the last time i saw her was when she just started her training in SQ and when she started flying a few months back i do not even know where her soul flew??? Like one moment she is in this country and the next day she is at another???? I barely have time for most of my friends too on my side but it’s just very frustrating when you just suddenly lose track of your friend and……she just “disappears”. Anyways my ears almost bled (in a good way) from listening to all her SQ stories and i just can’t help but empathize so much because it’s such a demanding job???? I’m just proud of her for enduring through everything and still having the passion for this because girl….i knew how hard she tried to get into SQ and she really worked her ass off to be where she is today. So continue doing whatever you’re doing now and enjoy every bit of it – sorry i ain’t gonna join you in this journey, SQ/flying/serving/this demanding lifestyle is just not for me heh but i’ll look forward to hearing to more stories from your travels/in-flight craziness!! (don’t know when is the next time, but please always remember you have friends back at home here always waiting for you)
(!!!) Can’t wait for Jes to get her scholarship money so we can head out, get a life and do some fun stuff because she told me to stop going movies on every wkends with her since i was trying to save up for my Korea trip…………………….
&& Olevels for my sister has officially started today – i literally bought her a tub of Ben ‘n’ Jerry just to cheer her on last night. I’m really damn worried for this little one here but i think we should all leave it in God’s hands. Can’t wait for this girl to be done with this milestone so we both sisters can have some hell of a good time in Korea next month. Ah, speaking of Korea……. i’m just praying so hard nothing disastrous hits Busan again because……..i really do not want to scrap my itinerary in Busan and the island day trip out TT_TT
Felt like i just wrote a diary entry but my heart has been feeling so full and whole i just wanted to jot all these down on this space. And i really cannot emphasize enough how my evening runs really contributes to such positivity it is like my kind of meditation??? (& once again, very thankful to the people around me who go the extra mile daily to remind me to stay positive, and positive will come along in your life lol that is really come tough commitment really) (and also making an attempt to bring smiles to someone’s day really makes you feel better too). The year is really coming to an end, i have a lot of things i really look forward to and finally taking a short break to settle myself down before i head back to the books and welcome the possibly last time being a student.
Till then, i’ll be back here soon. TATA, XX